Tuesday, May 02, 2006

In a Haze

You know how in those books you read, it says people moved "with a dream-like quality"? I never knew what that meant.

But today I did.

And here's my pathetic attempt to describe it.

My sister is talking to me. I can hear her, but, what is she saying? I don't think it matters.

My mouth is answering her. I'm speaking very quietly. Oh well. And I forgot my sweatshirt upstairs. I mention something about it to...

Whoever that girl that's in the room with me is...

My feet are already moving me to the door, but my eyes are focused on the ground. My hand reaches out for the door handle. I remember to look up, but...

Oops. I already opened the door. Now I'm just looking at the elevator. And now the water fountain, and now, oh, look. There's the ground again.

I'm moving at a normal pace, but it seems slower. The walls are white. But not like painted cinderblock. Just normal white walls.

I've turned the corner again. And I'm going up the stairs. They're a horrible shade of gray. Maybe they're rubber. Maybe, they're...

Maybe...

Stairs...

They're...

What was I saying again?

Still moving. Stairs behind me. Back to plain white walls and horrible linoleum floors. Did I mention the floors? They're horrible. And linoleum.

I'm reaching my hand out for the door handle. I grab the handle instinctively; I had gone through this door a bunch of times. My hand turns, as I pull backwards. And now I'm in the room. I grab my sweat shirt and open the door again.

Same process. Linoleum. Walls. Stairs. Linoleum. Walls. Rachel.

She's saying something again.

And then...

SNAP

I've woken up.

25 comments:

Abby said...

I have whole days like that. it's cool but sort of creepy at times

Abby said...

hey, i got first comment! fun fun fun

Sri. said...

Wow. Just... wow.

melissa said...

you have linoleum floors in your house?

Angie said...

yea for Jeff's par-ty!!!! HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!!!

Carissa said...

wow. that's cool. it's happened to me before. when i'm just dead. once in english class last year. i sat there for 5 minutes and didn't move or something. i don't even REMEMBER what happened. But someone was spazzing.

Anonymous said...

In a haze
Life has this dream like quality
In a haze
Life is an alternate reality
In a haze
Everything melts away
In a haze
It’s like a muggy summer day

He. He. He.

Jeff said...

You don't know what a "haze" is until you wake up after being knocked out by ketamine. It's an anesthetic (sp?) for those of you who don't know.

ali's got some things to ponder... said...

um, if in a haze means STONED, you've got that down.
is it weird that i have different poses for talking to people? i just noticed that today. like, if i don't like them i'll flip my hair back and cross my arms
and if they're my friends i'll lean on something or put my hands on my hips...just a huge variety of things.
btw, the name thing (ali has some things to ponder) is from ZOOLANDER!!!! like, when derrick zoolander goes, "i guess i have some things to ponder...." and makes the face. i love that movie.

Jeff said...

No, not stoned. Stoned would be when you use a drug for self pleasure and destruction. A doctor gave me it to knock me out for an endoscopy. See, by "haze" I mean that you think you're asleep, you respond to questions you hear but can't remember, you can see where you are but don't know why you're there or where you are, you can't remember what you said a good twenty seconds earlier, and you're constantly tired. It wouldn't be considered "stoned" because it's actually rather annoying. And no, I'm not a drug addict. As I said before, the doctors gave me that as an anesthetic for an endoscopy. Alright, I'm done my rambling.

Jen said...

yeah, uh.... hi. I don't know what to comment. But I don't want you to think I've disappeared or anything...

ali....yup, it's me. said...

wasnt talking to you, jeff.

hong said...

nice narration

Jen said...

*cough* ahem.

All people here should visit my blog now!!! Please?????

*poke poke* visit.... now...... you must visit now.....

Quote from someone: "AH!! My toga fell off!"

Can anyone guess who's that from?

omg....it's ali....cool. said...

OMG ITUNES!!!!! IT'S A MIRICLE!!! I FIGURED OUT WHAT THE VISUAL EFFECTS BUTTON DID!!!!! AND IT'S SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i should really stop commenting so much if i want to use different names said...

ok.
the visual effects started scaring me.
it looked like you were falling into an ocean!!! a badly drawn digital ocean!!!
so i spazzed and hit the button. or else i might accidentally jump into the screen and REALLY fall inot the ocean!!!!
sorry. just ignore me. no, really.
and this is ali, btw
bomb the sam!!!!

the clueless, the crazy, the ali said...

alsoo, how do you get gmail/gtalk? is it free or do you need to pay them??

brigitte, a.k.a. ali said...

and alsoooo, is anyone going to the 5th/6th concearto? *aka CONCERT* besides me that is??? anyone, anyone at all?

Carissa said...

carissa no going to concert. why is ali???
visual affects?
google 'google talk' and then click the first link and then click download
Carissa had CAKE carissa is HYPER!

ali in the third person said...

ali is going to concert because ali has a sister playing drums in the concert. ali will be bored and will have to read a tree grows in brooklyn. ali will go insane (if she is not already). but ali DOES like talking in the third person. and ali is also at a cool part in the book (if the book has a cool part, in which case this is it). that is all.

much luv from ali said...

gahhh someone has to INVITE you to gmail???? then how did it ever get started in the first place!?!?!?
can someone pretty pretty please give me an invite? all of my freinds seem to have gtalk instead of AIM, and i want one!!!!!!!!!!
thxxxxx!!
and also, the girl on the front of my "a tree grows in brooklyn" scares me!!!!
much <3,
--Ali

someone besides ali said...

ali comments mucho.

and that's someone's cue to say "Thank you, Dr. Obvious".

not the same person but not ali said...

Thank you, Dr. Obvious.

Anonymous said...

i would invite you. but idk ur e-mail.

mucho commenter, a.k.a. ali said...

lol
sam knows my email!!!! he can invite me!!!!
it's in his better interest too or else my head will sponatneously combust.

:)