Thursday, March 23, 2006

On Depression

I'm very depressed.

Not like contemplating suicide or anything like that.

But depressed.

Some reasons I cannot list, for fear of retribution and embarrasment. For the multiple parties involved in the reasons.

YAGMCB is over. Bah. I feel like it was just a couple months ago when we started. Well, it was only a couple months ago. But I'm still depressed. Cause after the cast party I'll have nothing but a huge void where that used to be. I'll probably fill it with drugs and such.

Rather obviously, I'm kidding.

God puberty stinks! I hate this. Yesterday people were crying at my school because a boy said he liked a girl and the girl was like, "you ruined my life" and then started crying.

Personally I feel that the boy is the one who was wronged. There are better ways to reject people then telling them they ruined your life.

Bah.

The girl is more my friend than the boy, too. The story, as I know, of course, is quite sketchy.

And I hate how girls get to cry and comfort eachother. If a boy cries, it is horrible. People laugh at him. But not girls.

This week has has seen a lot of people bragging. It just makes me want to throw up! Do I brag a lot? I can't tell. Someone answer me truthfully, and not just like kidding. Every answer I get I will hold as the truth.

And there's a person in my class who wants to be strange, but isn't. And now she's like desperate. She asks us where we would rate her on a strangeness scale. And today she actually said she was strange.

Not everybody is Dain and Frances!

And what is it with people and being strange? It's not that big of a deal.

Bah.

My hands are cold.

9 comments:

Jill said...

This made me laugh and relate a lot. I think I'm depressed too. But I think maybe I just want something to do, which is kind of like your missing play practice. Things are messy. You CAN cry. Have you ever read The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Steven Chbosky (I think that's the spelling of his last name?). It's great and though I'm not sure how old you are, it seems like something you may enjoy.

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Leah said...

Hmm, depressed? Been there, done that, got the t-shirt. Decided the t-shirt made me look fat, stared at it and abondened it in my closet. If you fill the void with drugs, can I bum some off you? Boy-girl thing sounds like you had to be there. They're both idiots for being overdramatic in public (sorry if any of them read this blog). Boy, this is gettting to be a novel. Will say final word. Cheese.

Jen said...

Who are the boy and the girl who you are talking about???

SAM NO!! DON'T BE DEPRESSED!!! IT'S ALRIGHT!!!!

Jeff said...

Ah, I know the feeling of the empty void of where a show used to be. Three times in the past year or so I have a felt it, and now I've come upon a fourth. And concerning the "boy and girl" (whom I will refrain from saying the names of) I personally think that the girl was waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too overdramatic. It takes a lot of courage to confront the person you have a crush on and say "I have a crush on you." or something similar. The girl was a complete jerk when she said "You ruined my life!" At least, that's my opinion. On regards to bragging: There are times when you brag, but most of the time you are very modest. Regarding girls/boys crying: I agree, it is unfair. Stereotypes are ridiculous. Alright, I'm done ranting.

Everybody Dance Now said...

If joy is what keeps most people alive
then why is the world over populated?
If pain and suffering are what most people feel
how many masks are on at all times?
If hell is where people place themselves at all times
then how can heaven be the goal you wish to reach?
If you don't find a way to beat the game of life
why bother living?

an also depressed angie said...

youre's too? their big... like my fathers... wanna dance!

sorry, i've been stuck in my room for the past THREE DAYS and the only people who seemed to have noticed that I was gone are maddie and dain! I'll be there tonight, if anyone cares....

Jen said...

Aw, Angie, I care! I noticed you were gone in art class yesterday. (all we did was origamis.....)

Except I'm not one to call someone if they're out sick or anything, so yeah....

Carissa said...

poor sam.. depression is bad.... but people deal. and then they think that they were stupid for being depressed in the first place. which they wern't. but w/e. and who was the boy girl thing? why do i know NOTHING????? And yeah... the crying thing is stupid.

And ANGIE! I NOTICED YOU WERE GONEEEE!! YOU WERN'T AT SOFTBALL! OR GYM! OR ANYWHERREEEEEEE!!!!!!